Friday, December 30, 2011


Belated Merry Christmas at advance happy New year.. Ang tamis ng christmas ko this year. I ate enough sweets to last me for the whole year. Wala munang New Year's resolution kasi baka totoo pala yung 2012 doomsday prediction na yan sayang lang. Magpapakasaya na lang ako at gagawin ang gusto ko sa buhay. Babawasan ko ang drama ko this year of the dragon. Sige kain muna ako ng leche flan.

Sunday, October 30, 2011

a horror story

Takot ako sa mga bagay na hindi maipaliwanag ala paranormal activity.   Gore hindi masyado nakakawalang gana nga lang kumain.
Enjoy the story...
                                              Haunted Island
Chapter I

“Wow that island looks amazing, are you sure that’s haunted?” Trixie asks the two fishermen accompanying them. She and three of her friends Art, Wendy and Maddie heard from her aunt about the haunted island. Their curiosity and sense of adventure got the best of them so they’ve decided to visit the island for ghost hunting. Nobody in town wants to be their guide but they were able to convince the two fishermen for a big amount of money.

“Miss don’t be fooled by its serene appearance. That place holds a lot of secrets. Just recently two lovers committed suicide in that island. Their body was never found.”

“That’s like Romeo and Juliet. Do you think we will end up like those lovers?” Art jokingly asked Wendy.

“Maybe we should go back this place gives me the creeps.” Urged Wendy, she only went along with the plan because of her boyfriend Art.

“You’re easily scared.” Commented Maddie, he is the one who thought of the idea of going to the island and staying there the whole night.

“But what if the legends are true?”

“Then we will see what we’re looking for… ghost.” She then took out her camera to start taking picture but their guide stopped her.

“We told you not to take pictures.” Warn the guide.

“Look we are not going to a military camp we’re sight-seeing so please just let us do what we want.” She’s getting a bit annoyed with their guides because they keep telling them what and what not to do.

Once they’re very near the island the guide became eerily quiet. They didn’t even bother to leave their boat when they got to the island.

“Aren’t you going to stay with us?” Asked Maddie.

“No, we are not allowed to stay on this island during the night. We will just go back here tomorrow morning.”

“I think you’re just trying to rip us off.”

But even before they can complain further the two hurriedly left. They didn’t even bother to look back.

“Do you think they’ll come back for us?” Wendy asks nervously.

I’m sure they will. They’re just really scared of this island during the night.

“I hope this place won’t disappoint. Last year’s ghost hunting was boring. Maddie started to survey the place. It’s already getting dark.

“Well we will know later.” She answered while taking picture of the island and the rundown mansion which according to the two guides was once owned by a Spanish Friar and his mistress. He was executed by the Katipuneros after the Spanish regime collapsed.

“It’s getting cold here. We need to build fire. Art get some fire wood.” Maddie ordered.

“But the guy said we should never build fire the spirits will get angry.” Wendy the ever frightened one insisted.

“Let them be mad I don’t want to die of pneumonia okay.”

She ignores the raucous her friends are making. She just keeps taking picture of the place. She doesn’t believe in ghost or any supernatural being all she wants is to get good pictures for her blog.

“Hey come on stop taking pictures and help me build fire.”

“What’s wrong I thought you’re an expert when it comes to building fire?”

“Stop mocking me its Art’s fault I told him to get some firewood but it’s been almost an hour and he hasn’t come back. I already sent Wendy to look for him and still they haven’t return.” He’s obviously frustrated because he couldn’t set up the fire.

“Here use my lighter and stop playing survivor.”

“Why didn’t you tell me you have a lighter?” Maddie took the lighter and use it. They just use the firewood they found near the beach. However once they secured the fire it suddenly started to rain.

“Oh damn it.” They gather their things and run towards the mansion.

“I guess the spirits doesn’t really want you to build fire.” She commented.

The rain stopped but they just decided to stay inside the mansion. Art and Wendy have not come back yet and she starting to get worry.

“Maybe we should look for them.”

“Nah they probably just want to be alone. And it’s already dark it’s not really safe to wander around.”

“Ok I think I need to rest I’m tired.” She just lay down and within a few minutes she dozed off.

“Trixie you need to leave this island.”

“But I can’t leave my friends behind Philip.”

“But there’s no time. This island is cursed they will come after you.” and then he started drifting away.

“Wait Philip.” She just run towards him but for some reason she couldn’t reach his hand. “Don’t Leave me.” She begins to lose her breath and then someone grabs her hand.

“Trixie hang-on” it’s Maddie saving her from drowning. Once they reach the ground she tried to catch her breath.

“My God Trixie what were you thinking you almost drowned there.”

“I was just sleeping earlier and then suddenly I’m in the water.” She’s really confused.

“What are you talking about I was calling you but you keep walking towards the water. You’re lucky I got to you on time. I think you’re sleepwalking.”

“I heard Philip’s voice.”

“It’s just a dream. He’s been dead for five years.” He reminded her.

“I know and in my dream he kept telling me to leave the island”

And then they heard a loud scream coming from the mansion.

“That’s Wendy’s voice.” They run towards the house and there they saw Wendy sobbing and Art laughing so hard.

“What’s going on here?” Maddie is already angry.

“Its Art’s fault he frightened me.”

“I couldn’t help it she’s easily scared.” Art pleased that his antics worked keeps grinning. “And why are you two wet don’t tell me you decided to go swimming at this hour?”

“Someone did but let’s not talk about that. We should just stay together and no more wandering around.

“Maybe we should just stay near the beach. This mansion looks like it’s going to collapse any second. I don’t want to be trapped here.” Art suggested. They all agreed to just stay outside.

It’s cold but they no longer tried to build fire. Her camera is already ruined because it was submerged in the water earlier.

“I told you this is a bad idea.” Wendy commented.

“ Just finished crafting those bracelets.” The sun will be up in a few hours and will be off this island by then. And so they just waited silently for the dawn.

Chapter II

“Trixie wake up.” Her co-worker is shaking her.

“I’m sorry I nod off.”

“What’s wrong you look so tired?”

“I’m okay I guess it’s my insomnia. I need to do my rounds now thanks for waking me up.” It’s been a month after her vacation and ghost hunting adventure and she’s still bothered by the dream she had on the island. That’s what causing her insomnia and its disrupting her work.

She works a nurse for a large hospital in Muntinlupa. She’s been a nurse for almost four years. She once planned to go abroad after graduation but when her then fiancé passed away she hold-off everything and just lost interest.

After her shift she received a call from Wendy asking her to go to Maddie’s place. And then she realized it’s been weeks since she last heard about Maddie. She hurriedly went to his house. But instead of Maddie it’s his parents that welcome them.

“Hello Auntie where’s Maddie?” She asked nervously.

“Actually he’s not here. We admitted him in a mental institution.” They sadly inform her.

“Why what happened?”

“He’s suffering from schizophrenia. After he came back from vacation he started acting weird he talks about the island you guys went to. At first he keeps having nightmare about the island. We thought he’s on drugs but when we brought him to the hospital the doctors said he’s clean. Last week he begins hurting himself just like before.”

“What do you mean? Does he have history of mental illness?”

“The truth is we’re not his real parents. His parents died in a car crash. He witnessed everything and as a child it traumatized him. He was not able to talk for weeks and he keeps having nightmare. He was hypnotized to forget everything but now his lost memory slowly resurfaced and I think that’s what causing his psychosis.”

She was surprised at their revelation that they left the place in shock.

“You know what I’m sure he’ll be fine. Maybe we should talk to him.” trying to lighten up her mood. She can’t still believe that Maddie the happiest one in their group is suffering from hidden depression and pain.

“He’s catatonic he’s not going to talk to anyone.” Said Wendy who looks stressed out.

“When did you start smoking?”

“Two weeks ago.”

“What’s going on you already quit that vice years ago.”

“Well things are not going too well.”

“Where is Art? Does he know about your vice?”

“I have no idea.”

“What do you mean you have no idea? You two are inseparable.”

“We broke-up last week. And I don’t know where he is. He just moved out of the house and quit his job.”

“He never told me anything.” She suddenly develop a migraine because of the bad news she’s been hearing.

“Well he never told me anything specific either. He just told me that he fell in love with this girl he met during our vacation. He claimed she followed him here and he could not refuse her. So he broke-up with me and I haven’t seen him since.”

“Do you know the girl?”

“I haven’t met her. I don’t even know her name. At first I thought she’s just an alibi to get rid of me but according to his parents he keeps talking about her to them.”

“I’m sorry to hear that. But you should not lose hope. Art loves you so much. I’m sure he’ll get back to his senses”

“Yeah right.”

Chapter III

“Hold my hand don’t let go. Philip!!!” She keeps yelling but she couldn’t hear her own voice.

The alarm clock woke her up from her nightmare. She’s almost use to it. She just went straight to the shower and got ready for work. She barely had any sleep and the news about Maddie didn’t help.

“You look worse today Trixie. You really should get yourself some sleeping pills.”

Actually she already bought some sleeping pills but she doesn’t want to take it. She’s been dreaming about Philip’s death every night and its driving her crazy in fact she doesn’t even want to go to sleep.

Her day went without any hitch she tried to call Art but his phone is out of reach. Even his parents don’t know where he went. They know he’s going somewhere but he didn’t specifically say where. It’s like he just vanish.

“Trixie we got bad news.” One of the stuff nurse informed her.

“What’s going on?”

“Wendy was admitted in the emergency room.”

“Why what happened?”

“She had an abortion. Something went wrong and she kept losing blood.”

“Oh my God is she okay?”

“It’s not looking good.”

She runs to the emergency room.

“Doctor how is she?”

“I’m sorry but we could not save her. Im sorry.

She was too shocked to react. And then she saw the body. With shaking hand she called Wendy’s parents.

“Trixie these are Wendy’s belongings.” They hand over her a bag and bracelet.

“Thank you.”

She looks at the inside of the bag. She found a picture of Art. And she wonders where he is. Does he know about Wendy’s condition? Is that why he disappears? She looks at the bracelet made of shells. They took those shells from the island. They all have the same bracelet. And then she remembers what Maddies parents told her. It’s the island.

After the burial she went to visit Maddie. He’s still catatonic but he seemed to recognize her.

“Wendy’s already gone and Art is missing I have no idea what’s going on. It seems like everything is falling apart. I think I’m also losing my mind.”

“It’s the island” he keeps saying.

“What do you mean?”

“Never take anything from the island.”

She remembered the bracelet and understand what he meant.

Chapter IV

“You angered the spirit in the island.” The albularyo while holding the bracelet told Trixie. “Everything in that island belongs to those spirits.”

“How we’ll be able to pacify them?”

“There’s only one way. You need to bring back what you’ve taken or the island spirits will haunt you forever. You’re lucky compare to your friends because another spirit is protecting you but he’s getting weaker and could no longer help you so you better hurry.”

“When should I go back?

“As soon as possible”

Then maybe I should go back now. I already have the bracelet.

“Wait till it’s dark. You should also offer something very important to you.”

She looks at her engagement ring. It’s the ring Philip gave her before he drowned.“ I think I know what I’m going to offer.”

Her heart is beating fast as the boat approaches the island it’s almost six in the evening and in an hour there’s going to be a high tide and half of the island will be submerged in water.

“It’s time” told the albularyo.

As she gets off the boat she says a little prayer. She buried the bracelets and engagement ring in the sand and hurriedly gets back on the boat.

“Once the water swallows your offering the spirits will no longer bother you and your friend.”

“I hope so.”

“Don’t look back in that island.” warned the albularyo.

“I understand.” She closed her eyes so as not to get tempted.

But as she closed her eyes she heard a familiar voice. She opened her eyes and look around

“What’s going on?” ask the albularyo.

“I heard Philip’s voice.” She’s not dreaming.

Philip where are you? She called out.

“Trixie stay calm it’s the island it’s tricking you.”

Help me Trixie.

“It’s not coming from the island.” She looks down at the sea and there she saw Philip drowning.

“Help him he’s drowning.”

“What are you talking about there’s no one in the water.”

Help me Trixie. Without thinking she dives into the water to try and save Philip.

“Philip I’m sorry I’m going to save you.” As she try to reach out to him.

“Save her.” Shouted the guys from the boat

“We can’t it’s too dark the water is already rising.”

“It’s okay Trixie we’ll be together forever in this place.” As they are both engulf by the sea.

“Do you think the island’s stories are true? Ask one of the tourists.

“We’re not really sure ma’am but recently a woman that went in the island just dived in the water and drowned. According to one of the witnesses she claimed she heard her dead boyfriend’s voice.

“So you mean you will be able to see your love one’s ghost in that island?”

“That’s what they say but once you see a ghost in that island it will mean death for you.”

“That’s scary I think I would like to see that island.”

“ At your own risk. At your own risk.”

The End

Friday, September 23, 2011

I'm back

So mga medyo nagwowonder kung where na me. Im still around kaya lang busy I got a new job at sa wakas hindi na siya call center so gising na ako sa umaga at tulog sa gabi.

Nakapasa na rin ang nobela ko so pwede na siyang mapublish. Im so happy.
Nika yung tanong mo nga pala. Medyo mababa yung bayad, 6k per novel para sa newbie yan. So magiging purista ka talaga unless you can produce 2-3 novels per month at siyempre laging approved. Tataas naman kapag naging seasoned ka na.
Required word number eh 23-24k pero depende yan sa publication,
sa bookware mas mababa 21k lang yata or 96-98 pages. Minimum of 10 chapters. Double space tsaka times new roman na lang ang gamitin mo. ang email ad kung saan pwede mong ipasa ang MS mo this is for PHR or you can go to this site for more info.
Sa book ware ito check mo rin tong website

Malamang matatagalan na naman ang susunod na entry ko so good luck sa lahat and enjoy life. Hindi na ako nagfafacebook at dahil doon mas marami na akong nagagawa sa isang araw.

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Kahlil Gibran The Prophet

I never get tired of reading the Prophet. Siyempre ang paborito ko eh when he speaks about LOVE


Then said Almitra, "Speak to us of Love."
And he raised his head and looked upon the people, and there fell a stillness upon them.
And with a great voice he said:
When love beckons to you follow him,
Though his ways are hard and steep.
And when his wings enfold you yield to him,
Though the sword hidden among his pinions may wound you.
And when he speaks to you believe in him,
Though his voice may shatter your dreams as the north wind lays waste the garden.
For even as love crowns you so shall he crucify you. Even as he is for your growth so is he for your pruning.
Even as he ascends to your height and caresses your tenderest branches that quiver in the sun,
So shall he descend to your roots and shake them in their clinging to the earth.
Like sheaves of corn he gathers you unto himself.
He threshes you to make you naked.
He sifts you to free you from your husks.
He grinds you to whiteness.
He kneads you until you are pliant;
And then he assigns you to his sacred fire, that you may become sacred bread for God's sacred feast.
All these things shall love do unto you that you may know the secrets of your heart, and in that knowledge become a fragment of Life's heart.
But if in your fear you would seek only love's peace and love's pleasure,
Then it is better for you that you cover your nakedness and pass out of love's threshing-floor,
Into the seasonless world where you shall laugh, but not all of your laughter, and weep, but not all of your tears.
Love gives naught but itself and takes naught but from itself.
Love possesses not nor would it be possessed;
For love is sufficient unto love.
When you love you should not say, "God is in my heart," but rather, I am in the heart of God."
And think not you can direct the course of love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course.
Love has no other desire but to fulfill itself.
But if you love and must needs have desires, let these be your desires:
To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night.
To know the pain of too much tenderness.
To be wounded by your own understanding of love;
And to bleed willingly and joyfully.
To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving;
To rest at the noon hour and meditate love's ecstasy;
To return home at eventide with gratitude;
And then to sleep with a prayer for the beloved in your heart and a song of praise upon your lips.  
Kapag binabasa ko to parang medyo may pagka masochistic ang dating pero naramdaman naman na nating lahat ito.

Friday, June 10, 2011

June na pala

Medyo magiging busy ako this month kaya malamang hindi ako masyadong makapagblog. Ilang Linggo na rin akong hindi nakakapagfacebook (congrats sa sarili ko) kaya ito kahit madalas akong nasa harapan ng computer puro pagsusulat lang ang ginagawa ko. Medyo nag-aalala na nga sa akin ang aking nanay dahil hindi na nga ako nasisikatan ng araw pero kahit noon naman kinakatamaran ko na ang paglabas labas. At mula yata nung naggraduate ako eh puro panggabi naman ang trabaho ko pero ito medyo negrita pa rin.

Halos isang buwan din akong araw-araw eh nagsusulat ng romance novel. Nakadalawang story na ako at pareho ko na siyang naipasa sa precious hearts romance (PHR). Yung una kung nobela eh for revision which is okay naman dahil unang gawa ko naman yon atleast hindi binalik ng totally rejected. Narevise ko na sya at I'm waiting sa approval or another revision. Yung pangalawa naghihintay din ako ng feedback mula sa editor. Usually 2-4 weeks bago sila magsend ng email. Sana maaprubahan pareho dahil highschool pa lang akogusto ko nang makapagsulat ala Helen Meriz, Rose Tan at Martha Cecilia.

So habang naghihintay I'm working on my third Manuscript at magbabalik uli ako sa online writing at kapag may oras pa eh sa pagsusulat ng abstract. Kapag siguro mas naging regular ang kita ko rito hindi na ako kukulitin ni mother na bumalik sa call center.  Naiintindihan ko naman yung takot niyang walang security kapag hindi ka yung regular na employee but there are things you need to do para magawa mo yung matagal mo ng goal. 

Hindi kasi ko magaling mag-multi task. Kung hindi magkalinya ang ginagawa ko talagang hirap ako. I can probably get by but one task has to suffer in quality. When i was still in the call center industry talagang hindi ako makapagsulat ng maayos. Paano ka naman makakapagsulat ng puyat, stressed at masakit ang mata.  

Oh well kapag okay na yung MS na pinasa ko tsaka na lang ako magpopost ng bago. Goodluck sa lahat at sana matupad nyo ang mga gusto nyo sa buhay, kung ano man yon.


Tuesday, May 31, 2011

The Biggest Loser

I'm a  reality TV show fan  at halos lahat ng mga nafranchise na mga reality eh pinanood ko survivor, PBB, PGT, Philippines Idol. Of course its only apt that i get a bit excited about the biggest loser Pinoy Edition and i guess we all know what this show is all about. Pinalabas siya last night supposedly 12 lang ng contestants but since there are many who want to join they've decided to add 2 more so siyempre they have to earn the spot. Long story short naging 14 na nga sila.

I think its going to be one of my favorite dahil bukod sa nandoon si Derek Ramsey na super type ko noon pa the contestants even though struggling with weight issues are quite likable. You definitely want to root for them and I mean lahat sila. Unlike sa ibang reality competition where sa una pa lang eh may type kana dahil maganda o guwapo ang contestant or dahil they are the most talented or dahil pinakamaganda ng personality.  In this particular show I want all of them to win because I knew their motivation is not money or to be famous. Its something deeper.

Aminin na natin walang gusto na maging mataba. Those people na mataba at sinasabing they are happy about their body and embracing their love handles and curves are either lying to themselves or just gave up long time ago.
Sino ba naman ang magiging masaya na pag pumunta ka sa mall at nakakita ka ng isang damit na type mo automatic ka nang magtatanong sa sales lady may double xl ba nito?  And chances are wala.

Or kung sumasakay ka sa jeep na punuan at masama ang tingin sayo ng driver dahil ginawa mo na lang pituhan ang dapat ay waluhan. Pero siyempre ipipilit pa rin niya ang waluhan walang pakialam kahit matagalan ang hintayan at sobrang sikip na. This time ang ibang pasahero naman ang medyo masama ang tingin sayo dahil ikaw ang nagpasikip ng buhay nila.

So I admire those contestants dahil inexposed nila ang less than pleasing overweight body nila at malamang their other emotional issues na kasing bigat din ng katawan nila.

Lahat naman tayo may kanya-kanyang way to adapt sa mga emotional struggle. Masuwerte yung outlet ng iba eh maganda like music or art o kaya travel ofcourse may mga nega din like bisyo in some cases sobrang pagcocomputer at siyempre sa mga katulad kung overweight eh pagkain. So I would assume itatackle yon sa show dahil may resident psycholoigist sila doon.

Good luck sa mga contestants and I hope lahat sila pumayat pero hindi naman ala Kim Chu sobrang payat na yon.     

Saturday, May 21, 2011

Is this the end?

Noong year 2000 may mga naghintay na rin ng end of the world at ngayon eh 2011 na nandito pa rin naman ang Earth. At ngayon naman eh may bago na namang prediction May 21, 2011 (ngayon) daw ang tinatawag na Rapture kung saan ang mga righteous will be going straight to heaven at ang mga makasalanan eh maghihirap pa sa earth till October, atleast maabutan ko pa ang birthday ko.

Ang tanong ko lang eh what time ba talaga kasi 6 pm daw pero hindi ko naman alam kung pacific time ba or eastern time o baka naman Philippine time. Kung Pinas time naman eh di tapos na pala at mukhang kumpleto pa naman ang population dito at wala namang ascension na naganap.

Totoo man o hindi ang prediction date na yan, mangyayari ang katapusan and we're all going to die sooner or later. Kung kailan hindi naman importante yon ang mahalaga we are aware of our own mortality at maging handa.

Dahil feeling ko naman eh aabot ako hanggang October magkakaroon kaya ng zombies? Wala lang naisip ko lang dahil may kakilala akong pinaghahandaan yang zombie attack.. if it his nerdy nightmare or dream i have no idea.  

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Warning: This is a Rant

A decade ago yata eh pinanganak ang GLOBALIZATION kung saan iniemphasize ang free trade, kasama din doon ang ibang tion... liberalization, privatization at deregulation. Dahil bago everyone got their opinion tungkol dito at ang mga estudyanteng katulad ko eh kawawa dahil ito yata ang laman ng bawat assignment at project. Ginagamit din itong theme sa mga school program at seminars.. TOWARDS globalization. And i was sick of the word. Buti na lang huminto na rin.

Isa pang term na parang gusto kung sumigaw at mainis kapag naririnig ko eh ang global warming. Pinapanood sa akin ang inconvenient truth and suddenly everyone wants to Go Green hindi naman masama yon infact its good that people are becoming more aware of our environment. Pero sabi nga ng prof ko dati its not about saving the earth. the earth will still be around for million or billion of years more masira man nang tuluyan ang ozone layer at tumaas man temperatura ng doble sa normal. Its us human who wouldn't survive ala dinosaur. The earth will adapt tayo ang hindi so stop about the hypocrisy of saving the earth its about saving our own human butt.

At ngayon ang kinakainisan ko eh ang RH Bill na yan Hindi dahil anti ako. I'm always pro choice... the more choices the better yon ang pilosopiya ko. Ang kinakainisan ko eh issue na to last election pa actually panahon pa yata ni flavier eh issue na ang contraception nagretire na lang siya sa gobyerno eh ito pa rin ang pinag-uusapan. I know its controversial pero naman this is so two years ago and they are still debating over it???

Mga congressmen may rason why tinawag kayong mga representatives kung nakalimutan nyo aside from authoring laws na hindi naman maimplement ng maayos its also your job to represent the voice of your people meaning yung distrito nyo. So do your job ask your constituents kung like ba nila ang RH bill and then vote base sa gusto ng mga kadistrito nyo. Moral dilemma my ass...

Nililipat ko na nga ang channel kapag ito ang pinag-uusapan. Hindi ko maubos maisip kung paanong ipinagbabawal ng Diyos ang contraceptives samantalang wala pa naman noong ganun nung panahon ni Kristo. Puwede ba sa ibang mga Pro and anti RH don't pretend that you know God's will because its sickening. When God said humayo kayo at magpakarami si Adam at Eve pa lang ang tao noon two freaking people alangan sabihin ni God na magpatayan kayo at mag-agawan ng teritoryo... later na lang yun nung panahon nung mga Hudyo at kinukuha na nila ang Israel sa mga Palestines.

Kung hindi yan pinagbabawal sa ten commandments then why should people lose sleep over it. And dont say na it violates the fifth commandments. Saying na kalevel ng Ampatuan at iba pang murder suspect ang mga gumagamit ng pills at condoms is just plain annoying and makes me wanna slap someone.

Tapos na to.....
PS: RH is not just about contraceptives.

Monday, May 16, 2011

Back in action

Buti naman at okay na uli ang Blogger at makakapag-update na uli ako. I already gave up facebook at in fairness dahil doon i have more time sa pagsusulat at panonood ng TV.

Dahil kulang ako sa inspiration eh nanood ako sa channel 7 ng Gangland ngayon ko lang napag-alaman maganda pala yung pelikula nayon. Medyo kulang sa redeeming value pero cool yung cinematography at sa mga tao na gusto ng madugong pelikula ito na yon.
Habang pinapanood ko sya it reminds me of Home Alone. Yup the super hit Christmas movie na pinagbidahan ni Mccauley Caulkin na hindi ko alam ang tamang spelling.  Hindi nga lang comedy ang tema nito at ang mga bad guys eh talagang papatay at hindi dalawang syungang magnanakaw at ang mga bata na target eh duguan at talagang running literally for their lives.

Parang gusto ko tuloy uling maghanap ng pinoy indie film na mapapanood lately kasi puro mainstream
lang ang napapanood ko. Sa mga mahilig magrekomenda bigay lang ng title at nang mapanood ko naman.

Medyo late na kapag may mapipiga pa ko sa utak ko tsaka na lang uli.

Saturday, May 7, 2011

Seven Deadly Sin

Sa wakas nabasa ko na ang article written by Andrew Willis entitled "Asia's Most sinful Cities"
Ang infamous 7 deadly sins
1. Gluttony: Taipei Taiwan
2. Sloth: Seoul, South Korea
3. Pride: manila, Philippines
4. Greed: Shenzhen, China
5. Lust: Tokyo, Japan- Obvious to
6. Envy: New Delhi, India
7. Wrath: Pyongyang, North Korea- Obvious din to pero feeling ko excluded ang ibang bansa sa middle east sa pinagpilian

Siyempre focus tayo sa Pinas quoting directly from the source

"Much is made about the loveliness of the Filipino female. But you wouldn't know it by talking to the Filipino men -- they're too busy gazing lustfully into the mirror.
According to a study from Synovate, Filipino men are the most narcissistic in Asia. A whopping 48 percent consider themselves sexually attractive.
And if the ladies reading this think the guys' encounters with the brow tweazers are for your benefit, sorry -- nine out of 10 Filipino men polled said they liked to look good for themselves, not anyone else.

By way of comparison, just 25 percent of men in Singapore considered themselves sexually attractive, 17 percent in China and Taiwan and a measly 12 percent of Hong Kong guys think the same"

 para sa kumpletong article ito yung  source.

 Akala ko ako lang ang nakakapansin that Pinoy men in particular eh medyo sobra ang bilib sa sarili pagdating sa kanilang sexual attractiveness. marami na akong nakilalang lalaki na talagang feeling guwapo pero looking alam mo na. Sa totoo lang hindi ko alam kun saan nahugot ang confidence nayon at kung medyo madami na ba sila o nagkataon lang naeencounter ko sila kadalasan. But i  guess hindi naman siya malayo sa katotohanan dahil sa Pinas ka lang makaencounter ng super self absorbing na Kantang MAHIRAP MAGING POGI, MACHO GUWAPITO at PINAKAMAGANDANG LALAKI SA BUONG MUNDO.

Kapag nakakita nga ako ng isang lalaki rejecting a girl because he thinks she's not attractive enough ang tanging comment ko lang Ikaw pa choosy buti nga may naattract pa sayo.

Pero syempre maganda din namang you're confident about your sexuality but dont over do it by thinking you are God's Gift to Women. Dahil kung ganoon ang tingin mo sa sarili mo mas maganda na lang sigurong manatili ka na lang sa loob ng gift box at hindi na mabuksan pa.

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

News Round-up

Naghybernate lang ako ng ilang araw eh sangkatutak na balita agad ang sumambulat sa akin. Akala ko talaga kasal lang ni prince william at Princess kate ang headline ngayong Linggo bukod syempre sa mga Mad Hatter na mga dugong bughaw pero tinalo agad yon ni Osama Bin laden. masaya na ring wala na siya at least nabigyan na ng justice yung mga namatay sa mga terror acts na pinamunuan nya. Siyempre nandyan na naman ang mga conspiracy theories dahil nga naman walang nakakita nung bangkay unlike kay sadam na televised ang pagbigti.
Infairness sa lahat ng pic laging malinis ang Turban ano kaya sabong panlaba nya.

Isa rin sa mga balita na nakapukaw ng atensyon ko eh ang pagreresign ng Ombudsman, akala ko talaga makikipagmatigasan sya hanggang sa dulo ng impeachment trial. sorry na lang sa mga senador na malamang eh nakahanda na ang isusuot para sa trial. Nawala ang tsansa for grandstanding. I guess si Lacson na lang ngayon ang may media coverage iba talaga kapag kaalyado ng presidente ang senado, nagiging boring.
feeling ko galit lang talaga sila sa mga may nunal sa mukha

So balik sa Royal wedding, magiging uso kaya sa Pinas ang mga weirdong sumbrero at headpiece sa kasalan? Parang maganda siyang gawing pacontest. Pabonggahan at paweirduhan ng sumbrero para hindi na lang puro Anime cosplay.

Siguro pag dugong bughaw ka you can get away with wearing a ribbon tied in an ancient doorbell.. o kung ano man ang tawag dyan

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Korean Drama part 2

Meron akong entry before tungkol sa pagiging addict ko sa Korean drama. And Korean entertainment industry is expanding all through out Asia ang mga K-pop boy and girl band eh parang kabuteng nag-uusbungan. Amidst all these Korean actors and singers isa lang talaga ang inaabangan ko at nag research sa mga previous at current dramas and movies nya. Nope not RAIN kahit type ko rin siya hindi rin si Lee Min ho kahit guwapo siya. My ultimate Korean actor crush ay si Gong Yoo

Name: 공유 / Gong Yoo (Kong Yoo)
Real name: 공지철 / Gong Ji Cheol (Kong Ji Chul)
Birthdate: 1979-Jul-10
Birthplace: South Korea
Height: 184cm
Blood type: A
Interests: Body-building, basketball, movie, singing

This guy looks better as he ages Ala Sean Connery and George Clooney.I'm sure maraming nakakaalala sa kanya from Coffee Prince. Di ko masyadong type yung huli nyang movie Finding Mr. Destiny and I'm still waiting for another drama series from him pero mukhang after coffee prince eh wala pa siyang bagong ginawa puro pelikula lang. I guess pagtyatyagaan ko na lang muna yung mga previous series nya.

Monday, April 18, 2011

Semana Santa

Kahapon Linggo ay araw ng palaspas kung kailan ginugunita ang pagpasok ni Hesus sa Israel at ang napakainit na pagtanggap sa kanya ng mga tao sa pamamagitan ng pagwagayway at paglagay ng palaspas sa kanyang dinadaanan ofcourse they are the same people na gusto rin syang ipapako sa krus after just a few days. Just goes to show how people are easily persuade and how public opinion could change dramatically in a matter of days.

Ngayon naman eh simula na ang pagbabasa ng pasyon infact yon ang gumising sa akin ngayong umaga. Wala naman akong ginagawang espesyal tuwing semana santa nasa bahay lang at nagmumuni-muni minsan kapag napilitan eh sumasama sa Visita Iglesias.

Kailangan ding magfasting kahit mga ilang araw ay iwasan kumain ng karne na i guess ikinatutuwa ng PETA at iba pang animal right activists. Of course by May dahil panahon ng piyesta eh people will gorge again sa menudo, lechon at kung anu-ano pang high in cholesterol food.

Ngayong semana santa napag-isip ko na for atleast this week eh may i give-up ako na lagi kung ginagawa. Medyo ngdyedyeta naman ako kaya hindi food. Pag-iisipan ko kung internet ang igigive-up ko for a few days or something else hindi pa ako sure. Meaning no manga, facebook, blogging at youtube for days starting perhaps Thursday. Hindi pa final to ha mahina ang katawang lupa ko eh lalo na at lagi kung inaabangan ang bagong scanlation ng naruto at One Piece. sasabihin ko na lang kay Sis na sya muna ang maglaro ng Cafe world ko.

Sunday, April 17, 2011


"Rolling in the Deep" is yung first single sa kanyang sophomore album "21". Napakinggan ko na yung mga songs sa album at lahat and I mean lahat maganda. If you're not familiar with her pakinggan nyo rin yung song nyang Chasing Pavements from her debut album 19. Ito yung kinanta ni Thia Megia sa AI auditon nya.

Adele is the real deal, her voice is great definitely full of soul.

Monday, April 11, 2011

Lets Talk about Money and Attitude

Maraming cliche pagdating sa pera like love of money is the root of all evil or money can't buy you happiness. May katotohanan naman yung dalawang kasabihan na yan. Happiness brought by money is as strong as a chain made of paper (papel de hapon pa kamo).

Pero isa sa mga lagi kong naririnig na sinasabi ng marami eh nakakapagpabago daw ito ng tao. "Mayabang ka na kasi rich ka na or the Porke may pera ka na nagbago ka na." I beg to disagree sa ganitong paniniwala. Kaya kang baguhin ng pera dhil sa make-up or retoke pero skin deep lang yon. Kung mabait ka nung poor ka hindi puwede na bigla ka na lang maging demonyito kapag naging mayaman ka. Kung nangyari man yon sa kakilala mo he/she is probably just pretending to be nice before at nung magkapera na realized that there's no longer the need to pretend. Lobo na nagbabalatkayong tupa. O maaaring ikaw ang nagbago sa pakikitungo sa kanya dahil naintimidate ka ng pera.

Hindi rin mangyayari na kung masama kang tao eh bigla ka nang babait kapag rich ka na. Katulad na lang ng mga magnanakaw sa gobyerno. Kahit bigyan mo sila ng 5 million magnanakaw pa rin yan pag nabigyan ng pagkakataon. No amount of money can satisfy greed.

Ang madamot ay madamot may pera man o wala.
Ang mayabang eh mayabang piso man o isang milyon ang ipon.

Mas nakikita lang ang yabang dahil sa laki ng perang ginagastos pero ganun pa rin ang level. Mas nakikita lang ang pagiging mapagbigay dahil mas malaki ang halaga na kaya nilang ipagkaloob pero ganoon pa rin yon. Kung mayroon kang isang libo and you give 1/4 of what you have sa charity mas cool ka parin doon sa isang milyonaryo na nagbigay ng isang libo. Kung mananalo ka sa lotto mas lalaki ang perang kaya mong ibigay but hindi ibig sabihin na naging mas mapagbigay ka. The money just show more of who you really are. Walang nagbago yumaman ka lang.

Money is more like a mirror o kaya magnifying glass. It doesn't change you it just reflects more of who you really are.

Sunday, March 27, 2011

La -la-la-la-la

I want a more feminine looking blog and what can be more feminine than a (rosy pink)? background. Too bad I don't have any artistic talent or any computer programming skill kaya I'm highly dependent sa mga built in template. Inggit ako sa mga blogs na puno ng drawings at may mga magandang background. It makes me want to take crash course sa fine arts tsaka computer graphics. Inggit din ako sa mga mangaka but that's another of my artistic frustration.

Thanks nga pala sa mga nagfollow sa blog ko. I highly appreciate that you take the time to read my entries. The fact I was able to regularly update my blog at least once a week means nawawala na talaga mga dry spell ko at syempre dahil alam kung kahit paano may nagbabasa bukod sa akin is also a good motivation.

More entries to come I hope.

Thursday, March 24, 2011

Gossip Girl

Isa akong dakilang Tsismosa. Mahilig akong bumisita sa mga showbiz forum at makitsismis sa buhay ng mga paborito at kinakainisan kung artista.

Lates showbiz at sports news:

Nagbati na si Cristine at sarah
Pumanaw na si Miss Elizabeth Taylor
Nagwala si Chris Brown at kamukha na sya ngayon ni Rodman
Lumipat na ng promoter si Donaire
Bagong demand ni Mayweather 100 million dollars para sa laban nila ni PACMAN

Kahit tsismosa ako maipagmamalaki kung kapag hindi ka artista, sikat na athlete o pulitiko hindi ko pagtyatyagaang ikalat ang buhay mo sa iba. Taboo sa akin ang ipagkalat na kabit ni ganito ang pinsan ng pinsan ng bestfriend ni ganito at ni ganyan. At kahit first hand pa ang information ko at ako mismo ang nakakita ng mga JUICY details ng mga scandal na ikayayanig ng buong barangay at pag-uusapan ng mga teacher tuwing recess, mga bading kapag walang customer sa parlor at ng mga impokritong relihiyoso sa simbahan hinding-hindi ko sya itsitsismis.

Dapat may limit din ang pagiging tsismosa.

Monday, March 21, 2011


When it rains it pours. I guess ganoon ko idedescribe yung trahedya sa Japan. Sunod-sunod talaga ang pangyayari. Personally I'd rather not hear any news related to Japan dahil sa totoo lang nadedepress ako. Pero nung makita kong continue pa rin ang mga manga nila I said to myself kung meron mang bansa na makakaahon sa malaking trahedya its JAPAN. Their resilience as a nation is quite admirable and that is something even a tragedy of epic proportion can't crumple.

Kaninang sinusulat ko ang post na to eh feeling ko lumindol. I thought I was just being paranoid dahil tungkol nga sa Japan ang post ko o kaya medyo nahilo lang pero naconfirmed ko na totoo nga. 4.6 lang daw pero parang mas malakas siya doon. Sa totoo lang malakas ang pakiramdam ko sa lindol kahit mahina lang ramdam ko. My dog doesnt seem to be alarmed pero kinabahan ako. Taga marikina kami before at akala ko noong lumipat kami eh medyo nakalayo na kami sa disgrasya (lindol at madalas na baha) pero malapit din pala sa faultline ang nalipatan namin well atleast wala na yung baha.

Thursday, March 17, 2011

College days

Malapit na naman ang bakasyon pero syempre di ko na naaapreciate yon dahil di naman na ako estudyante. Nakakamiss din at dahil nostalgic ako ngayon ito yung isa sa mga project na ginawa namin sa advertsing. Nokia ad sya at camera phone ang ginamit namin sa pagshoot kaya malabo. At ang hirap magdirek ng mga mahiyaing kaklase.

30 seconds ad lang pero inabot yata kami ng ilang oras sa pagshoshoot nito dahil puro retake. Mas mahaba pa yung credits hehe. May isa pa kaming Nescafe ad pero tsaka ko na lang ipopost dito.

Sunday, March 13, 2011

Talentadong Pinoy

Family bonding namin ang panonood ng Talentadong Pinoy every weekend. Sa mga hindi familiar ito ay isang talent show sa TV5 hosted by Ryan Agoncillo. Tuwing sabado at linggo to palabas. Pag sabado mga around 9 pm siya pinapalabas pag Sunday mga 8 pm. Paborito ito ng aking ina at kinuwento nya sa akin na magagaling daw ang mga contestants at judges. So when I started watching I was hooked at walang lipatan yan. Kahit nagkaroon ng Pilipinas Got Talent o yung other extreme shows sa dos at syete hindi kami natinag. Sumilip din naman ako dati sa PGT but di sya super entertaining katulad ng sa Talentado.

Naganap na ang 2nd Ultimate battle of the Champions. Tatlong oras ang show at siyam ang nagperform at lahat magagaling.

Anyways ang isa sa mga favorite kung performance eh yung kay Joseph the Artist. Ang medium na ginagamit nya ay SAND. 9 weeks syang nagchampion at sobrang galing nya.
Maganda sya promise.


Saturday, February 26, 2011

25 years of Edsa I Revolution

Buhay na ako noon pero masyado pang bata para intindihin ang mga bagay-bagay sa mundo noong paanahon ng EDSA I. Yung Edsa 2 naman sa TV lang ako nakilahok buti na lang kasi hardcore pro Erap ang lolo at lola ko at sasama ang loob noon kapag nakita ako na sumisigaw ng Erap resign. Gusto nga nilang umattend ng Edsa III noon buti na lang at malayo ang biyahe.

Pinagdiriwang ang Edsa depende sa administrasyon at dahil Noynoy is in the House bongga syempre ang celebration. Masaya naman ako na inaalala ang diwa ng Edsa dahil sa totoo lang I'm a big NINOY fan. Nung nasa university pa ako nanood ako ng maraming documentaries tungkol sa Edsa, Martial Law at tungkol kay Ninoy. Medyo maingat nga lang din ako sa mga comment ko tungkol kay Marcos dahil infairness sa kanila marami pa ring loyalista ang pamilya. Pero hindi ko pa rin nakakalimutan na sila ang dahilan ng maraming human rights violation, paghihirap ng Pilipinas at kung bakit nagkatrauma ang beatles sa Pinas. Si Marcos din ang unang nagpauso ng sex scandal sa cassette tape nga lang. It just sadden me dahil Marcos could have been a great president, infact okay naman talaga siya nung first term nya until inisip nya nang mag extend at isipin ang sarili niya kesa bansa. Sya ang kauna-unahang presidente ng Pinas na nahalal ng second term of course medyo maraming question mark sa pagkapanalo niya pero history will let it slide ang sumunod doon eh talagang di na kaaya-aya. Hindi lahat nasa history book pero he is one of the perfect example that powers corrupt absolutely. Marami rin namang nagsasabi na corrupt na siya even before and everything is a well laid plan bago pa man sya maging presidente. His intelligence could not surpass his greed. Isama pa natin ang greed ng nasa paligid nya which gnawed in our country for 20 years.

Tuwing Edsa yon ang naaalala ko. Siguro dapat alalahanin ang mga panget para siguradong di na mauulit. Pero siyempre naaalala ko rin ang kabayanihan ni Ninoy Aquino because he knew that his chances na mapatay eh sobrang taas pero bumalik pa rin sya. You rarely see such courage that it moved the whole nation to tears and ultimately to a decision na tapusin na ang diktadurya ni Marcos. Hindi perfect si Ninoy, isa rin syang TRAPO dati at mataas ang political ambition. Palasyo din ang habol nya pero when everything was stripped from him pati yata yung pagiging TRAPO nya nawala at lumabas ang pagiging totoong makabayan. Marcos tried to break his spirit pero kabaligtaran ang nangyari. He emerged a bigger and better man..bigger than Marcos and his men could ever imagine. Sa adversary mo lang talaga makikita what real men are made of... at sa EDSA nakita ng mga Pinoy yon at sinunod nila ang matuwid na daan... parang election lang FYI.. di ko binoto si Noynoy.

Kapag nga may nakikita akong politician na may potential maging next president iniisip ko is he/she more of a Ferdinand Marcos or a Ninoy Aquino. Most people are still looking for a Ninoy kaya nga siguro nanalo ang anak nya. Pero hindi lang naman sa dugo yon.. its more of the idealism. Mahaba na to masyado... the end

Tuesday, February 22, 2011


Forgetting you is harder than finding the sun at night.. its a line from the song Olvidarte which means to forget you. Isa sa mga paborito kung kanta. I think i fell in love with it dahil feeling ko ganoon ang level ko dati hehe.

Here's the complete lyrics of the song... yung first line lang nung kanta ang tinuro sa akin kaya dinugo ako sa pagtranslate nito dati.

Forgetting you  is harder than finding the sun at night
than understanding politicians or buying the Eiffel Tower
It is even harder than smoking a cuban cigar on an American Airline flight
even harder than finding a plastic wilted flower

Forgetting  you is harder than finding a skinny lady on Botero's painting
than finding a green cat on the street, or a Cuban without flavor
Its is even harder than seeing Lady Di at the Metro Station
Forgetting  you is so hard

Forgetting  you
Forgetting you
Is like trying to pull hair using a bottle
It is believing that our memory is like a cassette that you can erase
Forgetting about you is just making me remember that it is impossible

forgetting  you
Forgetting you
It is even harder than trying to get along with you
If i miss your neurosis and jealousy 
its no wonder I missed your body on my mattress

Forgetting you is an attempt that I really dont want to try anymore

because I have tried so many times that it just makes me remember you even more 
And I've come to suspect that my desire not to remember,
is what has me sick with memories.

To forget you is what I hope to continue my life 
fed up with the ability to dream 

sa Gusto malaman yung melody ito yung link

Pero siympre kahit walang araw sa gabi meron pa rin namang mga bituin sa langit at ang kinang nila ay sapat na para malimutan ang kalungkutan. Nandyan rin ang buwan at kahit hindi sya kasingliwanag ng araw eh sapat lang para makita ang daan at magpatuloy sa paglalakad.

Nakakatuwa rin  isipin na kahit sa isang tao ang paglimot sayo eh parang paghahanap ng araw sa gabi.... sana nakita na nya ang araw at masaya na sya ngayon.

Friday, February 11, 2011

Feb post 2

Inaya pala ni Phil Younghusband si Angel Locsin para sa isang Valentines date at siyempre alam nang madlang people ang mga pangyayaring ito dahil ginawa ito through Twitter. Sabi nga ng iba kilig to the bones. Mas masaya pa rin ako dahil nanalo ang Azkals laban sa Mongolia 2-0 at nakita ko sa news footage kung gaano kataas ang suporta ng mga tao. Puno ang lugar at may fireworks display pa after ng game. Its great na nagiging popular na ang football o soccer sa Pinas.. its about time.

Kahit di ako magaling maglaro isa akong true blooded sports spectator at super fan. Noon pa man hinihiling ko na sana magkainteres ang Pinoy sa soccer katulad ng interes ng buong mundo dito. Mahal ko ang basketball but lets face it hindi tayo ganoon katangkad and i feel that soccer is a sport na kayang mag excel ang mga Pinoy. Ngayong may mukha na ang soccer sa Pinas at nabibigyan na sila ng magandang exposure sa media sana magtuloy-tuloy para ten years from now may panonoorin na ako sa World Cup at nang magcheer ng todo-todo. Biruin mo makakasama na tayo sa pagpipilian ng mga fortune teller na hayop, sayang patay na si Paul the Octopus.  

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Feb post....

Ang bilis ng panahon. Kumakailan lang nagcelebrate ng Xmas then gumawa ng mga New Years resolution. This week lang nag year of the rabbit. Medyo mainit na rin uli.

I just feel sad na parang ang daming di masyadong magandang nangyari sa pagpasok pa lang ng taon. Yung mga naganap sa Makati na nagpakaba ng husto sa akin and recently nga eh ang suicide ni Former AFP Chief of staff Angelo Reyes. Pamilya kasi kami ng sundalo at pulis kaya medyo nalungkot ako sa pangyayari. Its a shame that sa huling bahagi ng buhay niya eh naging puno ng scandal at batikos. However its a cross he has to carry dahil sa mga nagawa niya ganoon naman talaga yon tayo ang nagpapabigat sa sarili nating dalahin because of our deeds masama man o mabuti.

On a lighter note malapit na ang Valentines Day. Siyempre wala na naman akong date. May nag-aayang mamundok pero masakit ang tuhod ko dahil medyo naparami ako ng kain ng bataw. Never din naman akong nahilig sa bundok gusto ko lang syang tingnan pero ang akyatin hindi ko carry. Pero I admire mountain climbers, mga healthy sila, masayahin at mababait. Hindi lang talaga ako mahilig sa maramihan at malayong lakaran lalo na at literal kang maglalakad ng ilang oras. Gusto ko lang talagang magsolo flight ngayon para mas light ng buhay at bawas ang drama.

Congratulations din nga pala sa mga kinasal kung mga friends at former classmates. Si Marlette na isa nang Mrs. Medic ito nagulat ako dahil nene pa to para sa akin inunahan pa ako. Si Jonar N. na matanda na kaya pwede na talagang lumagay sa tahimik. Maging masaya kayo. Minsan kapag may nakikita akong masaya at super inlove parang mas nagiging kapanipaniwala ang they lived happily ever after . Amen

Friday, January 14, 2011

A bloggers Favorite Blog

The first blog I read or at least the first one that leaves a mark on me  is an online journal from an improv site.  I clearly remember what that blog is all about: PORN

Its not about doing porn movies or best link to porn site. Its about a woman's account working in a porn video rental shop. It was recommended by a friend and once I started reading I couldn't stop.

Title of the blog is True Porn Clerk Stories by Ali Davis. Her account is funny and for a while it makes me wanna take on odd jobs. Her blog is so good that it got viral she also  got the attention of local radio stations.

When I googled it just a few hours ago I read that it was already taken down.. sorry no free reading.

UPDATE: True Porn Clerk Stories is no longer available on this site. We were proud to host this journal for the last seven years, but now it's available at on the Kindle and the paperback edition can be bought at

 Too bad.. oh well I hope I can find more interesting online journals and blogs to read in the coming years.


Monday, January 3, 2011

When things get emotional....

I write
Sometimes I listen to music or walk to lighten up my mood but at the end of the day writing makes me feel better.

Siguro dahil simula ng taon kay medyo nostalgic at maraming alaala ang nagbabalik. The weird things about memories malungkot man siya o masaya they still make you wanna cry. Siguro dapat ipagpasalamat ko pa rin ang flow of different emotions because it got me blogging kahit madaling araw na and tomorrow is going to be a productive day... i hope.

Last year is a defining year for me. 2010 is also the year I had to let go of someone. Its one thing na mahirap gawin para sa akin, sentimental kasi ako kahit di halata. They say If you lose someone or something may darating daw na mas okay. Naniniwala ako doon pero kahit ganoon ang hirap pa rin kasi hindi lang naman effort at time and binigay pati puso kaya its like losing a part of your heart and even though optimistic ka you knew things will never be the same. Hindi na kasing tamis ang mga ngiti, mornings will not be as bright and for a while i lost my muse. Minsan iniisip ko its better to have a broken than a hollow heart. Pain drives you but hollowness sucked you into despair you don't even want to fight. Its like asking yourself worth it pa ba ang mga bagay dito sa mundo.

I'm not driven by money nor fame. Madalas naiinggit ako sa mga taong pera lang ang motivation kasi madali lang paghugutan ng inspirasyon yon para gumawa. Shallowness have its benefits. Pero ngayon i feel rejuvenated dahil siguro 2011 na and i have learned to moved on and face all the coming years with positivity.  Alam ko things will always get better in the end.


Saturday, January 1, 2011

Happy New Year!!!!

I'm going to start my year by writing. Actually wala talaga akong maisip na maisulat pero dahil isa siguro sa mga bagay na pinakagusto kung gawin eh ang humarap sa monitor at magtype ng mga random thoughts I just felt that this is the perfect way to start the year.

Hindi kami nagpapaputok tuwing New Year. Torotot lang at konting ingay. Mahal ang paputok kaya nakikipanood na lang kami sa kapitbahay. Masaya pa rin naman ang pagsalubong namin sa Bagong Taon. I prefer celebrating New Year kasi this always reminds me that things no matter how bleak or bad can always turn better in the coming days. A new beginning for everyone. Hope always accompany new year and for some reason the festivity always makes me feel better. Nakakahawa rin ang optimism.

Hindi syempre mawawala ang mga paniniwala tuwing New Year. Mga simpleng pampaswerte na nakaugalian na nating mga Pinoy. Sabi nga ng matatanda "wala namang mawawala kung susundin natin". Bilog na prutas na simbolo ng pera at paputok pampataboy ng malas. I guess its more of a Chinese tradition we adopted tuwing new year.

In my case lagi akong may New Year resolution but this year I've decided to just forego with this personal tradition. Ang gusto ko lang talaga eh mas maging productive ang taon na ito para sa akin. I made a lot of decisions na maaari kung pagsisihan in the coming years but those decisions panininidigan ko yon hindi dahil sa nagkasubuan na but because baliw lang talaga siguro ako.

Looking forward talaga ako this year hindi lang para sa sarili ko and my family kundi para din sa mahal nating bansa. Bagong taon, bagong dekada, bagong presidente... na sana maging simula ng pagbangon ng Pilipinas mula sa kahirapan at kurapsyon.

Hindi nga siguro mabubura ang mga pagkakamali ng nakaraan pero lahat tayo laging may pagkakataon na mapaganda ang ating kinabukasan.

Again Happy New Year at sana makapagsulat pa ako ng maraming entry sa blog ko.